Dead Man Walking

I didn’t know whether to laugh at the irony or cry.  I just sat there, stunned and in disbelief.  So many emotions. I was grateful, appreciate, curious and somewhat incredulous. What . . . ????!!!!!!!!!

I went away and came back with a diagnosis of Leaky Gut, Adrenal Fatigue, thyroid dysfunction, hormonal imbalance, low iron, hypoglycaemia and amazement.

How could I run a marathon when I was combatting all of those ailments.

I walked out and said “dead man walking”. That’s how I felt. I was incredibly curious how I could have completed the marathon with all these conditions.

I am still stunned. Not sure what to say. My adrenalin levels are so high that my digestion has shut down. My body is starving and holding on to all that it has. It can not release anything until it has been replenished. I have a plan and an astonishing insight.

I concluded that the body – my body is amazing but my mind is the most amazing wonderful integrative machine I have.

It’s time to heal.

balance

At some level I knew that my energy level was not normal. I have a strong constitution, which I am very proud of but now it’s time to harness the feminine energy and nurture myself. Tap into the intrinsic need of my cellular body.

To create space and nourishment at all levels, mind, body and soul.

So what does this look like?

My diet will be modified.

Boundaries, including work hours and sleep time will be monitored. Oh – I am insomniac too.

What else can I do?

I can feel

Be observant

Become curious – even more than before.

Does this mean I have to stop running? On the contrary I must continue but no long runs until my body recovers. Only 30 mins runs or 5km – no longer.

I want to really congratulate my body for all its efforts. I want to shine a light on the mind and how amazing it really is. We can create anything we put our mind to. We have this wonderful ability of freedom to choose and then follow through. Our soul is the driver. It’s time to rest and bless my cells.

funAction now is fun. Releasing the need to do. And enjoying the pleasure in being.

If you are resonating with any of my journey – go to the Drs and eliminate all the autoimmune diseases because you deserve to have energy and to thrive.

Or if you’ve been diagnosed with any of the autoimmune diseases – I hope that you find the clarity and the inspired action to resolve the cellular dysfunction.

My biggest aha – if I am dead man walking and still feel great, imagine how much energy I will have as My body recovers.

I honestly love my body and all it has accomplished. It’s time to love it back.

With love, Maria

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